Reading nothing at the moment!
Feeling tired. And unmotivated about almost everything.
Dreaming of changing leave and apple cider.
Writing all the feelings about Spinal Cord Injury Awareness Month. April and September are my most vulnerable months,
Listening to Taylor Swift’s new album. Every song is good.
Drinking lots of water. And Pepsi rather than Dr Pepper. IDK what is wrong with me.
Worrying about everything. It is all stressing me out at the moment. It would take 2 seconds to look at how my face is broken out to tell.
Happy about my hair loving the Curly Girl Method. Happy healthy hair.
Excited about mini sessions happening this month and next.
Dreaming of a day off by myself. Again.
Working on blogs.
Constantly wearing hoodies. Always. Forever. My favorite clothing item.
Eating chips and queso. A good way to put on weight!
This past weekend, the weather was typical of a winter day in Kansas. Rainy and cloudy and just really boring. We decorated Valentine’s cookies with my nieces, and in that short time, sitting at the kitchen table with cookies and frosting and 6 different types of red and pink sprinkles passing around, I felt really whole in my role as a mom. It really takes very simple things to make a kid happy and make them understand that you care about them.
There are a lot of things I can’t do as a mom with a physical disability. I can’t run or jump or show her how to swing with my own legs, but there are a lot of things I can do. Like make her laugh and make her smile and make her feel loved and comforted and heard. So many times I feel like people (who obviously don’t know me) question my ability to mother her by what I am not able to do, and that’s not fair. Being a mom is making sure you raise someone who is going to be a productive and loving part of society. How you get from birth to that point can look so different for different families. My disability is just one small part of our path there.
And you know what, I don’t have to prove to anyone that my kid is happy and well taken care of. She will do that all on her own. She is upbeat and giggley and smart. Love exudes from her tiny body because that’s what we teach her.
The next time that someone judges someone else’s mothering, just shut it down. If their babies are happy and healthy, let them do things how they know how to do it. Everyone’s family doesn’t have to look like yours to be happy.